Calm

Dear Jaymi Viktoria,

I may never truly know the reason behind the failure of our first court date and the week we spent in despair believing that we would never be able to bring your home, never see you again.  I can however speculate, and focus on the good that I have seen come from those times of trial and sadness.  The most important to me being the single, short hour and a half visit we had with you on our last trip.  We waited for you in a small office while you finished juice time with your group.  You walked in with a big smile on your face and ran to daddy and gave him a big hug and let him hold you and tickle you.   In that short visit, this mama's heart was calmed and many fears of bringing you home were washed away.  A confirmation that you were ours, you were always meant to be ours and you will always be our little girl.  I cannot tell you how much I needed that.  Thank you for showing me the way little love.  In 36 days we will pick you up from your children's home, dress you in your very own new clothes, walk with you hand in hand outside those gates and bring you home forever.  There is a great big world full of lots of love awaiting you.  Two small little girls at home that will be your best friends forever.  It may be a little bit late, but you will be the BEST, most very SPECIAL Christmas gift our family will ever receive.  See you soon, we are counting the days, the hours, the minutes!

Love Mommy