Dearest Victoria,
This past week has been incredibly difficult. One of the hardest weeks of my life. I haven't told you a lot of what has been going on since we left you last, its been very complicated and got more and more complicated each day. It was starting to look like we were no longer going to be able to bring you home, ever. In fact it would truly take a miracle for things to change, they were almost certain. Oh how my heart ached, it was so much like when my daughter Kaelyn was so sick and we didn't know if she would be able to survive. I was so sad, so very sad. I kept reminding myself to trust in Heavenly Father and in his plan for you and us, but it was so hard.
This morning I got up very early to go exercise and when I got home I was in the shower thinking about things. I wanted so badly to picture things working out the way we have always hoped, but it truly felt insurmountable. I wouldn't let myself go there because I knew it would make the news I had started to expect, that we would have to let you go, even more devastating While I was in the shower we received a call from our agency, the minute I got out your dad came and gave me a big hug with a smile on his face. Yes, YOUR DAD. The releases for us to adopt you were signed today, we will be going back to court in a few weeks, this time with all the necessary paperwork.
There is so much more to this story, more than I feel able to share on your blog at this time, but eventually I will. You are so loved little girl, so very loved. If I have learned anything from this heart-wrenching experience it's how much I love you, how much your daddy loves you. The thought of never seeing you again, not having you as part of our family was almost too much to bare. It took us to a very sad place. I will cherish you even more now than I could have ever before this. There is no doubt in my mind that this has come about due to many answered prayers. God is working miracles, its true. He loves you and he loves us. He loves all his children, more than we will ever know. Today is a very special day.
Love Mommy
Jeana-
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry you had to go through all of that worry. Just like you stated though. Things happen for a reason and you realized just how much you loved her and would be sad without her. It was meant to be. I can't wait to see all the welcome home pictures!!! Congrats
As I told you, my heart is happy. Thrilled. Elated. Rejoicing. Your email came and I was beyond ecstatic. Nearly cried. And you my friends, I am so proud of you. Despite your fear of what lie ahead, you remained faithful and hopeful.
ReplyDeleteYou have gotten good at the remaining faithful and hopeful thing. It began with the feisty one and has just kept going.
Love to you all and January can't get here soon enough. Finally. Your girl home. What a blessing and a miracle.
I am so excited for all of you!
ReplyDeleteexcellent jeana - I think about you guys almost every single day. Yeah, yeah, yeah!
ReplyDeleteWhat wonderful news! I am so happy things are working out! Sorry you had to go through all the pain, but soon you will have your daughter home. Many prayers to you and your family!
ReplyDeleteOh my goodness, i had no idea what was happening! need to crawl off Fb and into blogland more often!!! So very happy things are going well again!!! I cannot imagine you losing her now!
ReplyDeleteLove and prayers to you!!!!!