Dear Victoria,
Oh my goodness I'm so excited to share this video with you. I just saw in on my friends blog and absolutely LOVED it and knew you would love it too. My favorite part is the song at the end. I just heard this song for the first time on the radio last week and fell madly in love with it. Ask your sisters, we have listened to it at least 15 times in the last 24 hours. It reminds me of you. Someone might think, why? You've only known about Victoria for 2 months, how have you loved her for 1,000 years? Well if you remember from an earlier post I honestly believe that we knew this plan in the pre-existence, before we came to earth. So really, its been a lot longer than 1,000 years, but that works.
In the first verse it says,
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow
I have to tell you that for now the bravest part for me is letting myself fall in love with you. There is always that chance that something could happen and we wouldn't be able to bring you home. Nothing is certain in adoptions until after the judge has ruled in our favor, and we can bring you home. Part of me doesn't want to open myself up to the possibility of losing you, but I'm trying my best to be brave. To open my heart completely to you, knowing that its all in God's hands, and whatever the outcome, it is right. I learned this lesson while pregnant with your sister Kaelyn. We never knew if she would even live, and I prayed so hard to be able to accept God's will. It was the hardest thing I've ever done and things worked out perfectly, but it was a long, scary process. So this time around I'm doing the same. Loving you as if you were here with us now, so when you are, it will be as if you've been here all along.
My other favorite part of the video are the lines, "Once your were rejected, now you are CHOSEN" I hope you realize how very special you are and that we are doing everything in our power to bring you home, because we chose you and because God chose us. He loves you dearly and wants you to have the best this life has to offer you.
Love Mommy
FYI Here are all the lyrics
"A Thousand Years" by Christina Perri
Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer
[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more
Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this
One step closer
[Chorus:]
And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more
One step closer
One step closer
[Chorus:]
And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more